I am 33yrs. old and I am suffering from flashback from my childhood. When I was 5 my father sexually abused me for many years. And now I am having these dreams. Or I can be doing something and I will remember some he did or said and that will ruin my whole day. I try to keep an open mind that he is not here and he can't hurt me anymore. The memories are really starting to take a toll on me and how I live my life. And I don't want that, I want to move on. Maybe until he leaves this earth is when I will feel like the door is finally closed and I can finally have peace of mind.
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