hey, im new in here.
im not going to talk about myself, but im going to talk about my bestfriend for 12 years, Revan.
last year, on march 18 our bestfriend died bcs of an accident. and revan, blaming himself for Samudra's death. my bestfriend name who died is Samudra. they both love racing, until samudra saved revan from someone bad intention. if samudra wasn't there, maybe i will lost revan.
i was there, watching that moment clearly with my own eyes. samudra, saved revan with his own life.
and revan keep blaming himself. whenever he was being left alone, something bad will happens.
he always trying to kill himself when no ones around.
until his parent decided to admitted him to psychiatric hospital. his parent didnt told him about that to him, his brother, and me. only his parent who knew about that.
but revan, he always rebelling. he always find a ways how to hurt himself. that's why the doctor there always touch him to hold him down and giving him so many medicine. since then, he hates being touch. except me and his brother. he can only touch us. he cant even touch his parent. he should be there for 2 years and a half. but he's running away last year around october to november. he told his brother about everything that happened and his brother got mad to their parent. i really didnt even know what is happening. his brother decided to take care of revan and told me about everything. i srsly cry until my eyes can't bring out tears anymore. i srsly want to hug him but his brother said he's still in shock, and my condition still isn't stable yet. his brother scared that my condition get worsen too. so he didnt let me visit. his brother said revan, he didn't want to get touch, and just sitting on the corner of his room.
today, i can get in touch with him. he's still consuming sedatives that was given by the psychiatric since they knew about his condition and keeping him there can make his condition worsen.
i dont want him to depend his life on medicine. i want him to live like how he used to. what should i do? actually i really want to tell this but im too scared. and now im really hopeless. so please, help us both.
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