I am really struggling right now, my boss has become a major trigger for me and I’ve started going to the bathroom and cutting to try and cope with working with him. My husband said I can leave my job any time, my boss has massaged my shoulders a few times at work when I looked ‘stressed’ I don’t think that’s appropriate. He also is very highly strung and seems annoyed most of the time, when he talks his tone makes him sound like a asshole. He’s often gotten angry and cussing and then appologized for his behaviour. Trouble is I’m always so ‘nice’ and understanding and feel like I’ve created my own personal hell by making him feel it’s ok.
I’m also doing emdr right now and my therapist has worked on getting me grounded instead of dissociated which is probably how I coped with working with him before. Now he irritates every last nerve in my body. I told my husband I was cutting and he threw all the razors away but I just went and dug them out of the trash because I have to work with him tomorrow and I don’t know how else to cope. I’m also experiencing daily panic attacks and am barely functioning but if I leave my job I don’t know what we’ll do for money. My husband said we will find a way and we will be ok. I know my job isn’t the whole story, I feel like anywhere right now will be just as bad.
Anyhow I feel like I’m rambling, it’s just horrible feeling this much pain and I don’t know how to deal with it.
Hi, I don’t know if I had an anxiety or panic attack. Today I went to counseling and was talking about my nieces and nephews and how they don’t listen. And after I came home I started getting really stressed out when I started thinking about them and my number one anxiety that I fear. So, I had to keep messaging my friend to tell me that it was okay and then I had to take deep breaths, drink...
Hello all, Received good news on yesterday. Attended class today and know back to feeling overwhelmed about the work that is due. Can someone help me understand the point of good stress and bad stress again? I know somehow there should be a balance. When you all find your balance could you please let me know. smh