In the past I have self harmed to get past emotions. I'm talking 19 yrs ago. All of a sudden in the last six months it is happening again, and I am 39. I am in therapy and have alot of "professional" support, however I am in a new city and have no peer support and am very lonely. That was not the case when I began self harm again. I was in a place, actually a relationship where I felt real deep love for the first time as well as friendships of the real kind. Ohhhhh it's so complicated. However I had left behind a very important piece of my life in order to do this. Two years ago I got on a plane and moved 2500 miles away from my family who contribute to my emotional distress to start a new life where I knew no one. It worked for awhile. When it stopped working I knew I had to come home and finish the work. However the self harm is more and more frequent and dangerous. I just want to know that I am not a freak and there is light, and I'm not the only one.
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