Ok - so I've started this discussion 6 different times and keep erasing it, lol. I am for the first time in my life realizing how much my mom's mental illness affected every part of my growing up. My mom was diagnosed with paranoid schizophrenia when I was 9 years old. I stuffed it down and stuffed it down and didn't know how to even talk about it because no one seemed comfortable talking about it with me. My dad is very verbally abusive and degrading and offered me no help in understanding this illness. Just in the last month I have come to understand how much I miss having an adult relationship with my mother and it is very painful watching other women relate to their adult children. Has anyone else experienced living with a schizophrenic mother and how do you cope?
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