I LIVE IN A VERY SMALL TOWN. I HAD THIS PERSON I MET AT A CHURCH, HE WAS WONDERFUL, THEN I FELL TOTALLY IFATUATED WITH HIM. MY WHOLE REASON FOR GETTING UP WAS TO GO SEE HIM. I HAD HAD HEART ATTACKS AND WAS AT A LOW. THIS WAS ABOUT FOUR YEARS AGO.WELL MY BEST FRIEND JUST PASSED AWAY AND I NEEDED AFFECTION SO BABLY. HE WOULD'T EVEN HOLD MY HAND.HE BASICALLY SAID "WE CAN BE CORDIAL AND AFFECTIONATE." HE WASN'T EVEN AFFECTIONATE. HE'D COME HOME AND. I GO TO SLEEP, LIKE HE SAID HE WANTED TO DO. I BECAME A PEST TO HIM WANTING TO BE TOUCHED. EVEN HUGGED.WHEN I INTODUCED HIM TO OTHER WOMEN AND MEN, HE BECAME QUICK FRIENDS AND/OR OW LOVERS. I AM /WAS BEING GASLIGHTED BY HIM. HE HAS TWO LIVES, THE POOR PEOPLE LIKE ME AND THE RICH GAY PEOPLE. HE WOULDN'T EVEN INTRODUCE ME TO HIS FRIENDS.I THINK HE'S LIKE A DRUG PERSON. HERION, COKE, CRACK. HE'S GOODLOOKING AND CHARASMATIC. HE GOES THROUGH MY GARBAGE. HE STEALS MY KEYS, BROUGHT BEDBUGS IN. HE HAD MONEY AND TAKES ADVANTAGE OF THE SYSTEM. HE IS TELLING EVERYBODY I KNOW AND OTHERS REALLY TERRIBLE THINGS ABOUT ME, LIKE I BURN DOWN BUILDINGS, AM DANGEROUS,(to him, I told people he was on drugs) ONE BY ONE PEOPLE FELL AWAY FROM ME AND EVEN BECAME HOSTILE, THEY NO LONGER WANTED MY FRIENDSHIP. ONE GIRLFRIEND OF MINE WAS HEAD OVER HEELS AND WOULD DO ANYTHING TO PLEASE HIM. THE WAY I LEARNED ABOUT HIM WAS TO LOOK I HIS BRIEFCASE.I THREW HIM OUT 6 WEEKS AGO AND HAVEN'T SEEN HIM SINCE. BUT OTHERS HAVE. HE HAS TERRORIZED ME, KNOCKING ON MY DOOR AND RUNNING DOWN THE STREET. HE GETS OTHERS TO WATCH AND FOLLOW ME , PEOPLE I WAS FRIENDS WITH, HIM OR HIS GIRLFRIEND. HE HAS SEVERAL DIFFERENT LOVERS. HE NEVER GETS IN TROUBLE WITH THE POLICE BECAUSE HE KNOWS MAYORS (GAY) ,PEOPLE WITH BIG MONEY. LAWYERS. HES SO DAMN CHARASMATIC HE CAN MAKE ALMOST ANYONE DO OR THINK WHAT HE WANTS THEM TO. I AM IN TROUBLE. THIS HAS BECOME A THING OF HIS GIRLFRIEND'S HOUSEGUESTS, FORMALLY MOST OF MY OLD FRIENDS, EITHER HIM OF HER TAKES THESE PEOPLE AWAY FROM ME. SHE HAS A BEAUTIFUL HOUSE, LOTS OF BEDROOMS AND COOKS FOR THEM. SHES ALSO PROMISCUIS. BUT SHE CONSIDERS THE CREEP HER BOYFRIEND. I CAN'T EVEN SIT ON MY PORCH WITHOUT ONE OF THESE GASLIGHTERS WALKING BY. PLEASE HELP ME, WHAT CAN I DO? I'M DEVESTATED. I SIGNED A POLICE THING FOR DOMESTIC VIOLENCE, SIMPLE ASSULT BUT DIDN'T PRESS CHARGES. LIKE I SAID, HE'S HIDING BUT HE'S AROUND. HE'S PROBABLY GETTING SICKER ON DRUGS BECAUSE OF THE ENABLING OF THESE PEOPLE. I'M GETTING SICKER FROM LONLINESS AND STRESS. EVEN ON THIS COMPUTER, HIS FRIENDS LOOK UP ON DS. THESE ARE PEOPLE WHO DON'T CARE ABOUT ME BUT MR MAGICAL, FUNNY, CHARMING. ANY ADVICE WOULD BE RECOMENDED. I FEEL I HAVE PTSD, IF I DIDN'T BEFORE, THANK YOU.
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