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whether anyone reads this or not i don't know if it really matters, i just need to get it out. i'm so tired of people saying they will be there for me and they are never there when i need them. then my parents kicked me out because they are blaming me for everything that has gone wrong this past year and having us here is just too much for them. so i have 2 options. streets or living with druggies. either way i'll eventually loose my daughter. but atleast she would be warm and not in the cold weather getting sick. oh god i don't want to loose my baby girl! but i have no choice anymore. god i'm to the point i want to just curl up and die! i never thought i'd be so low in my life. but i am. i'm having really bad thoughts. i have nothing except clothing. that kept getting thrown in my face. that i'm worthless. i'll never be anything. so why even try anymore.
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theatre and I are there already. I'm having a very berry tea with crackers, cheese and cherry tomatoes and she's having a joint with some beer and we're both on really comfy recliners on thick pile carpet. we need some help with the decor if anyone is around??
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I'm trying to exercise daily. I was doing fairly well until I sprained my ankle 2 weeks ago but now I'm getting back on the horse. Today I walked over a mile with my arm weights that are about 22lbs total. I was out of shape and it was hard on my arms. I also did my 30 situps. I'm also going to drink a lot of water and try to eat healthy. I do tend to have a sweet tooth but I'm cutting...
I want you to do something for me.
First, look at your parents. I'm not judging anyone at all but from what you've said they have thrown you out with your daughter to leave you with two horrible options (as you see it) and blame you for everything, think you're worthless...
Now, look at your daughter. I can hear you saying you don't want to loose her but you also don't want her to suffer. She is innocent in this and looks to you to take care of her. She does not think you are worthless, she needs you...
Your choices are actually more than you think.
If you want to know my opinion, keep your eyes fixed on that little girl and go to a domestic violence shelter in your area to get help and start over.
I understand how you feel, I truly do and in many ways I've lived it over and over again. It's scary, it's heartbreaking, it's unfair, and you don't know where to turn because the natural instinct in us would have us turn to our parents (fully understand the heartbreak of not being able to do that, trust me, hard one to over come) and they aren't there for us. But there are people out there who will be there... don't give up on yourself, don't give up on finding what you two need.
I believe you have it in you just by the fact that you posted this in the first place. You're not done reaching out, which is a good thing. Keep that going :)
You'll be in my thoughts/ prayers :)