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forgetting things

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i have been forgetting a lot of day-to-day things lately. when i think about my past, nothing really jumps out. however, when i am in therapy or reading a book i find myself remembering little things here and there. but not in a coherent story-telling type order, just little snips.

i know i diasassociate. my husband says i go into my own little world all the time. funny thing, is i don't remember myself doing it most times. i'm getting scared because people at work are saying that i talk to myself. so now i've been trying really hard not to, but when i am i don't realize it. i've also been throwing little child-like temper tantrums lately, and other times my husband says i turn really vile and mean. this past weekend my husband said something that snapped me out of it, and i couldn't believe what i said... it was so surreal.

not really sure where i'm going with this, other than its frustrating not being able to remember things. i feel like i just kinda float from one thing to the next in the day without really feeling grounded.

can anyone else relate? or have any suggestions?
pageo
pageo
I am assuming that with in therapy that you are dealing with trauma etc...I have also taken note of my memory and my splitting existence. It is all very normal for trauma folks. I get home work from my therapist and have been going for some time now so much of what you describe has improved. It takes time, none of it disappears over night. The fact that you are becoming aware to all of it and able to see stuff in bits is a good thing. For myself...I exercise a lot of compassion and understanding. Every time I meet with anger mode...meaness
or tantrum stuff...I have time outs with myself. I have learned to see it when it is happening and take myself to a place where I can go through it so I will lessen the external damage. The child mode doesn't like this...it wants to fight and win.

I am not so sure about what to say about going into my own little world. I do it. It is a safe place and for now I think it is OK. When I was younger and before I ever engaged with council..I went into my own world or so it was perceived that way, quite often. I also was very spaced out most of the time. I am pretty sure a lot of this has decreased. Cultivating presence is real work since our separating has been a form of survival long after the trauma has ended.

I would like ot post some articles so taht people can read about trauma. All of the symptoms have a meaning or a use. They are not accidental or wrong they just don't work for healthy human integration and more. That is one reason to keep with the council and become courageous in all efforts.
with efforts to our health.
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Yes! And it's really frustrating because I can't create a narrative of what is going on in my life, outside of my feeling world. It seems that the people around me are just cruising along, seeing a "bigger picture" and focusing on events, goals and responsibilities. While often ti feels that I am just trying to manage my emotions. I definitely feel disconnected and it sucks because I deeply desire to feel connected, related , understood and loved. Dissociation is very common with PTSD and you don't need to feel ashamed or put yourself down. Being involved in this community means that you are reaching out and that takes strength and courage.
Desertdancer
Desertdancer
I feel like I have lived my life in fragments.
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Check out my reply to "Rowan's" post entitled: Question: When is blocking really blacking out? It may help answer your question.
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