Hi everybody. So I was very active on DS over a year ago if not longer. I started working in May of 2019 and my life got so busy and I stopped checking in on DS. I certainly do miss you all and I really need some support at the time.
I recently got out of a 3-week hospital stay at the Dr Colin Ross institute for trauma in Denton Texas.
I'm struggling a lot right now! I'm having trouble sleeping, struggling with anxiety and bad nightmares and flashbacks you know the usual with PTSD.
I also have DID. Once known as multiple personalities. I've been diagnosed for about 6 years. The last 3 years I've worked hard on recovery and have made quite a bit of progress. I am struggling greatly right now with a few of my alters that are being destructive. I'm doing my best to cope but at times I just don't know what to do.
I start a partial hospitalization program tomorrow morning. I'm hoping that goes well and it is something that will help me. if I am still unstable I may need to seek further treatment at a residential facility further south of where I'm living.
One great thing in my life right now, well actually there's two, is the Kansas City chiefs football team. defending super bowl champions. They just won the very first game of the 2020 season against the Texans. It was a great game and I can't wait until next week. I also have a new little kitty her name is Poe also known as princess Poe she's a full of energy and I love her so very much. I also have Max he's five and a half it's taken a while for them to be buddies. They are doing better now.
I just took some PRN anxiety medications and hopefully I'll be able to get back to sleep shortly. I don't understand what's going on right now as I just spent weeks trying to get through situations just like this.
how do you guys deal with the fear of being abandoned due to past events? been to therapy for years but going over the past over and over and over again just brings out the fear more..