so yesterday during therapy,i brought up how,when i first started seeing him 5 years ago, i had told him one of my main goals was to have a richer life,and how i just do not,how,i haven't really worked on that.
in his empathic nature,he told me that i have had a few set backs since then,and he has since stopped pushing me to write...(my mental illnesses have caused me to abandon my dance/acting/and writing careers).
i have managed to stay out of the hospital for 3 years now,and am in a healthy relationship,however my PTSD,my eating disorder,and my social anxiety make it tough to move forward.
people will say,"volunteer" "Yeah but,yeah but...." "write a little each day" "Yeah but,yeah but..."
i'm sorry,i don't exactly know here i am going with this...(*sigh* just as i do not know where i am going with my life)
i dunno....does anyone get where i'm coming from?
i mean my OCD and my PTSD make it very scary to even leave the house,and my OCD gets in the way of my writing and my social anxiety makes taking another acting class at this point impossible...(This are just some of my "Yeah buts....")
so...so,so,how,in the face of all of this do i even strive to have a richer life?
because i truly have no idea....
Need ideas please. I have insomnia. I am trying hard to reset my sleeping habits to being a morning person. I know if I am up early I tend to get more motivated and more things done. I take my meds regularly one of which is Seroquel which can make a person sleepy. I took two one mg Ativan that was a desperate move on my part and I am allowed to do this per Doc orders. I am not willy nilly...
Just a heads up for the jounalists who are accustomed to my responses on your journals, the notifications are getting to me. Yet again, I am amazed at how fast notifications start looking like spam. It sure is easy for a good idea to turn into an imbalanced extreme.I am going to try waiting a day or so before I respond for the sake of lightening the notification stream.Anybody having any luck at...