so yesterday during therapy,i brought up how,when i first started seeing him 5 years ago, i had told him one of my main goals was to have a richer life,and how i just do not,how,i haven't really worked on that.
in his empathic nature,he told me that i have had a few set backs since then,and he has since stopped pushing me to write...(my mental illnesses have caused me to abandon my dance/acting/and writing careers).
i have managed to stay out of the hospital for 3 years now,and am in a healthy relationship,however my PTSD,my eating disorder,and my social anxiety make it tough to move forward.
people will say,"volunteer" "Yeah but,yeah but...." "write a little each day" "Yeah but,yeah but..."
i'm sorry,i don't exactly know here i am going with this...(*sigh* just as i do not know where i am going with my life)
i dunno....does anyone get where i'm coming from?
i mean my OCD and my PTSD make it very scary to even leave the house,and my OCD gets in the way of my writing and my social anxiety makes taking another acting class at this point impossible...(This are just some of my "Yeah buts....")
so...so,so,how,in the face of all of this do i even strive to have a richer life?
because i truly have no idea....
Im feeling worried because on Thursday my mom wants us all to pray togther because my sister is leaving for college soon. Group prayer really is not thing. Also the last time I was involved in a group prayer I was verbally attacked by my mom. Also she told me at the beginning of the week and now I have time to anticipate it. The same thing happened last time and it led up to my mom verbally...
I'am not a good writer so bear with me.I am in Mexico City at the moment. I meet a man from the US also who tells me he is in Mexico City trying to get his child back.He says his wife a Mexican lady took off to Mexico with the child left him with his grandparents and went back to the US alone taking the child's passport with her because she doesn't want the child anymore and that she was hittng...