Good morning! It is 2:44 am right now and I am having PTSD flash backs about a near death experience that I had in February and lasted until March of this year. I was in ICU at the hospital for over 2 weeks. On life support because I could not breathe, I was being treated for a pneumonia like virus and I had blood clots in my legs and lungs. I also had to have heart surgery because there was a lot of fluid around my heart. I suffered damage to my vocal cords from being on the ventilator for that period of time.
So I lost my voice and was not able to eat and swallow regular food. I was not able to walk because I was so weak and short of breath. I had to learn how to do everything all over again. Speak, walk, eat , go to the restroom unassisted and shower without help. Everything. I actually died for a little while when I was in ICU but I came back it wasn't my time to go yet. I am glad my life is back to normal now but for some reason I keep having these flash backs of being in the hospital and rehab. I don't know what to do to get rid of them. For some reason a part of me is stuck there and not able to move on so that the flash backs go away. I don't know how I am suppose to forget an experience like the one I had so I can move on.
i found this interesting.i have such a difficult time with deep breathing.My breath just gets so stuck no matter how hard i try.https://www.sciencedaily.com/releases/2019/04/190407144213.htm
This is a subject that just crossed my mind as I replied to a thread: Whether you've conquered anxiety, working through it or feel like you are losing the battle, what has been your biggest misunderstanding of it? Or biggest misunderstanding of solutions...