I am feeling really down right now. I had a decent day at work, than I come home to my parents house (which I am staying at for the moment) and my mom is upset, because she doesn't think I should be scared of my ex. This really upsets me. I have been crying for a while now. I can't explain to her why I am scared or angry or sad. She doesn't seem to understand when I do try to explain it. She said that as long as we keep the police involved that he can't hurt me. Well, I hurt everyday, because of him. Especially with the flashbacks and dreams. There is always a constant reminder of what he did. She has always thought that I should be over it already, or that I shouldn't let it bother me. I really wish I could do that, but it doesn't seem to work that way. No matter how hard I try to forgett or cover it up (with lies) it is always there. The feelings never change. Does it ever get easier?
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