One of my least favorite cycles: Fear -->Repression -->Depression. I am really depressed today, but I find that the situation is more complicated than that. I am depressed because memories came up recently of being verbally abused by my boss. So is the problem depression or really being a victim of verbal abuse. Enter negative thoughts, but this time it's the things he told me and the things he made me believe about myself. He made me feel like I would never amount to anything. This is affecting my work, because if I really am as worthless as he thought I was, what is the point of even trying. If I'm not as smart as I thought I was, then how can I master the advanced statistics and health subjects I'm studying. I know these thoughts are flat out lies. They are not even remotely true, but I still feel down.
I've been trying to stay productive one baby step at a time, and listening to happy music. I'm trying to combat the negative thoughts when they come up. I'm trying not to remember how scared and naked he made me feel. I just feel so lost and sad.
Any suggestions? What keeps you going through the tough days?
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