I don’t want to get into the whole story of what just happened because I think I’ll get more upset & im shaking rite now ..... pretty sure I just experienced some really shitty racism... I keep trying to tell myself maybe I misheard something but I think that’s just denial trying to give me a glimmer of hope. There is no denying what just happened. This world can be so scary sometimes.
Im not even mad, just crying ... I feel really really hurt
I moved out here like over a year ago... this is the first time something hit as hard as it did today, I’ve felt people looking at me & stuff already because clearly I am not from around here, but this was the first time it was just so in my face.
I can not express how truly truly hurt I am rite now
Ive been having trouble being present in the group here the last week or so cause everything is kind of too much but this feeling inside I have rite now is so lonely
I’m a mixed race woman but my strongest features ‘looks wise’ I take after the Puerto Rican & Taino Native American side, I actually look a lot like my grandmother in PR
I am a cautious person but always kind to everyone I interact in life because how badly I’ve been hurt in this lifetime I never want to make anyone feel pain, I vowed to myself a long time ago to no matter what to try to be a light in this world that has nearly killed me both physically & emotionally, because there needs to be light in all the darkness
i did not deserve what just happened .... no one does
I don’t know how to explain the hurt I am feeling rite now, not only for myself, but for anyone that has ever felt this way
Good morning from the Cranky Cat! Oh, I woke up on the wrong side of every bed ever. Just... tha tkind of morning after too long since decent sleep and solid food. (Back t solid food now, yay!) Anyway, not aided by coming downstairs to discover a certain spouse of mine (and I only have one, mind you) left the counter covered in dirty dishes b/c ---- it's not his job to put away clean ones, and as...
Any one heard from S? She hasn't been on in a while which isn't like her. I'm very worried. Anyone please let me know if u know why she isn't here or if she's ok. I'm hoping ur ok S.