I have been estranged from one of my brothers for decades.
My oldest brother,who over the past year tried to reconnect with me,turned out to be an abusive monster.
And...I just- I just could not take the abusive texts anymore.
Still,there is a part of me that feels tremendous guilt over cutting the both of them entirely out of my life,and I know it has hurt our mother.
But I could not bear the abuse any longer.
Should I have had more gracious patience for the both of my brothers?
The both of them-the both of them I have my reasons.But.
With a beautiful heart of peace and patience?
Aren't I just weak in having done this?
In hospital recently,my brother's abusive texts gave me terrible panic attacks whcih caused the staff to take my phone away from me several times.
I blocked him.It was liberating.
But he is still in touch with our mother,who will be going in to a nursing home at some point soon.I am not sure how much she understands.But it must hurt her her children have no contact with one another.
Am I evil??
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