I was not even considered for a 1 day a week job where I have been volunteering for 1.5 years. I just learned today a person was hired in June and has been coming in. I don’t d not even know it was available. Completely over looked. That frigging stings. What I am not good enough? I have worked my butt off trying to be a great volunteer so I would get hired. I am done. Today was my last day and I am so emotional. Been crying a lot and feel like I am not good enough. I am really hurt to be so over looked. I am feeling what is the point in trying? I cannot sleep and I cannot get out of bed. What is the point? Why try? Why keeping getting up? I feel so bad right now and I am replaying events looking for areas I screwed up in. I had to have done something wrong in order to be so over looked. Ugh! Wrong place yet again. Story of my life.
I reached out to a friend who replied “that sucks”. This is a friend off work with anxiety who has literally cried on my shoulder. She has friends and family caring for her. Inviting her out helping her. I thought she would understand. Nope I got no support when I needed it. Again over looked not worthy I guess.
People suck and so does life.
I've just been feeling overwhelmed by the amount of school work I have. I get frustrated because these classes are not even that difficult, I'm just not the best student. :( I'm trying hard to overcome these challenges but sometimes I just want to shut down and take a nap. I was almost in tears on the train home because of all the homework I have to do. I don't even know how to ask questions in...
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