But when I do I really need help. 2020 just won't give up. I've lost so many people to Covid 19 I stopped counting. No funeral services to lean on others and to remember. I lost my best friend of 40 years. You may have heard of him.....Lute Olson. Basketball coach for U of AZ. He was everything they write and more and less at times. We are all human. My psychologist has been out due to surgery for three months, my pcp out for four months due to surgery as well. I have not left my home since March. Have lost 70 pounds. I stay in bed but to feed cats and put delivered grocery and pharmacy items away. The world is so depressing out there I dare not turn on the TV....it's been months since I did so. My support system fell apart. I'll never talk to Lute again. I knew it was coming but didn't want to acknowledge it. I'm left with acute depression, cPTSD, insistent cluster headaches, anxiety and panic I can no longer control and flashbacks of things I couldn't wis upon the worlds worst villains and enemies. I am suffering greatly. I have nobody left.
Is it really okay to call in sick due to mental health? I have not mentioned this to any one for years, or give an honest reason of absence due to embarrassment and shame. I'm so afraid to come out to my new job and never have to my previous workplaces.I can do a day or 2 worth of shifts and suddenly I need a day to recover from my symptoms. Does any one else go through this? Is mental health...
how do you guys deal with the fear of being abandoned due to past events? been to therapy for years but going over the past over and over and over again just brings out the fear more..