I have been dealing for 2 weeks with bichon post surgery. She has been so wonderful for me the last 7 years A true Angel and God send. She gets me up no matter how crappy i feel. I have cried with her many times and know she was healing me of ptsd and assault in unspoken words,, I never could take care of a pet as an adult . i was just too busy working or just did not have the instinct. Not a pet person. Lady forced me to learn. i say this because of stigma. How her leg got broken is the worst deal in seven years and it was a new trauma .. Garage door sensor failed. Long story. i have blamed myself mercilessly. but i did all i could to save her taking her to the best surgeon i could. and it has been since then up and down . literally . She has been so tired of the stint . keep it clean . change diaper . feed her . take her out. wake up go to sleep . you name it.. yesterday i noticed she had gotten to her stitches and was licking them it was red. so i took her to local vet and got the e collar . They gave me wrong size . i did not realize it until this morning. She had managed also to pee all over the stint . i used my last diaper and she soaked it So today go to vet . I felt horrible when she peed in the crate in waiting room no diaper just the chux. so the tech was snarky and took her back . She came back and said that she bathed her and she was slightly infected .Took her home and took instructions for aftercare. All i got was bring her back in six weeks. Cold and snappy. My trigger is this ,I am a bad mama , I let her stint get soaked in urine . After 2 weeks of meticulous care today is the day she soaked it . funny part.. Window of car broke on way to vet and her crate got wet. bad mama. where it comes from i dont know . I am bummed out.. Help me . i could write a book about how i have loved and cared for my dog. I still feel huge triggers about this I love her so very much. her sitter knows it so does my regular vet. But because vet did not come to talk to me i assumed i was being scolded for letting her stint get wet . She has slept all day since we got back, ok can i have some good feedback. that is enough venting Bad ptsd day. thanks RL
Does anyone struggle with health anxiety? This is new for me (although I've had other anxieties in the past) and I'm looking for someone feeling the same things as I am.
So yeah--I thought it would be ok---there's a blood shortage--they insist everyone wears masks---blah blah... but I totally ended up crying and screaming at this one idiot who wouldn't get away from me. I had to walk in past a bunch of people without masks and the guy goes to take my temperature--oral thermometer...I was like..."seriously?" so I stuck that out and at least made him move away...