It is the forth of July and every year I think I am okay and the sounds happen and the noise begins and the bangs happen and It is again every year the anxiety of gun shots through my head.
I wrote a journal - it more or less explains the details alittle, but when will I be able to enjoy this holiday ?? I get so scared a;nd lock myself in - it is like the gun shots that pass me by.
Oh, it is very anxietal and my body has a panicy feeling to it. Every time !! :(