I need some imput. I have resolved Ninety five percent of Issues relating to my Abuse. Yet this one I started in therapy and Quit abruply. I was in my Fortys and still disassociating sex as well as Astrological Projecting. I had found so many ways to exscape out of body and new personaltys to deal with it. When I left therapy for this I just gave up I was so angry. I going to give physical responds. Fourteen the onset of normal trasition body broke out in boils and fetal seizures started. Twenty Eight awareness direct reaction to guess what. Stoped to reorganize thinking process and desensitize reactions. Tryed again for some time. Reaction time speeded up. Dirrectly after fetal seizure. Kept trying for Ten more years. Stopped once again the seizure had lessoned but still Astrological Projection was still there. My therapist started the desensitization process once again. This time I just got so angry and frustraded because I was disassociating so badly I just gave up the idea of this ever happening. I've come to a trasition were I have learned who I was becoming in those disassociation. Yet observing couples and normal male amd female thinking processes and is some what disturbing as in behavior,psylogogial,yet the mental trasition,yet there need for inter action. I have been married twice both for some time. Yet three other relationships. that lasted for soom time. I could listen but could not understand this need. Since I left my long term therapist that specialized only in this field. I have not entered another one. I had another seizure recently from a reactive standpoint of disassociation ending. It was so painfull I went to the Doctor. I just at my wits end.
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