I'm leary about the new upgraded DS.
I was raped about a month ago. I have multiple personalities. One of my Alters is young and provocative and she is the one who consented to sex or was raped. I don't know cause I don't remember. I eventually reported it last week. Fortunately he had an outstanding warrant and was arrested. Unless I decide or the DA decides to press charges he will be released tomorrow. I have a big decision make.
I've been through all of this crap before with my EX. Its hard, triggering, humiliating, and scary. I don't know if I can do this right now. I'm very fragile, depressed, and vulnerable.
It will be a very hard case because of my "disabilities"
My depression and suicidal thoughts are worsening. Its been 5 months since I've been in the hospital. I was really going strong. But this event has shaken me to the core.
I'm at a loss as what to do.
Support, love, hugs, advice, comments, questions will really help.
I joined a complex PTSD group on Facebook. Someone wrote a post about how they think that their problems with complex PTSD make it too difficult to have a relationship. Not only because it's difficult for them but it's a heavy burden to put on another person, especially a healthy person who doesn't deal with these issues.It ends up being a pretty good discussion. One woman had the same issue...