Imagine going to your place of employment every day and not being able to avoid conversations, situations, e-mail messages, and people that remind you of getting psychologically tormented. Imagine having explored all alternative job possibilities but finding that there's nothing else that would be a good fit intellectually and economically. So you feel trapped and stuck. Some may say the solution is to just find another job.
I've never been physically abused. I've never been sexually abused. Despite being the hardest and most dedicated employee I've ever known, I've been emotionally bullied by peers and supervisors in work settings. With the use of lots of self-help tools, taking care of myself, using politically protective strategies, etc., I was feeling normal for a while, until two weeks ago.
In my current job for almost 10 years, I got an unjustified, undeserved, and trumped up written warning. The next 3 days were a total blur. I barely slept, I cried almost continuously. I got back to work, but yesterday, my heart pounded so fast and hard with trembling just while talking to one of the supervisors. Every time I make even the slightest mistake, I worry beyond belief that it will be magnified and used against me. It's so much pressure on myself that I'm exhausted.
I'm see a psychiatrist just for medication, and I am trying to find a psychotherapist. I'm here looking for some validation, support, and advice. Thanks.
I'm a social worker with a Master's degree.
I found a therapist who works specifically with autistic people. To talk about the sexual traumas I went through. I was molested by a family member and sexually assaulted by an older man. Also need to work out my issues with my parents and get over my repressed anger. I am good at putting on a happy face and presenting a positive attitude to friends and family but a lot of the times I dont feel...
Went with my mom grocery shopping and since it was late we both decided we would get subs to take home. Since Subway was in the Walmart we were at that's what we decided on...Yay no more stops til' home!! :) :( that became a bad decision real quick :(The young man behind the counter was sarcastic from the start. My mom asked if the special that was displayed on the window still in effect...