Can’t stop crying. I was triggered by a jerk at the store who went off on me for saying “fuck it” when I decided I didn’t want to wait in the long line for lunch meat. There were no children around, I wasn’t upset, but apparently I am white trash. Now I am prepping for my 2 and a half hour drive to pickup my kids from my abusive. Keep thinking about how I messed up my life marrying the wrong man. Lots of thoughts of cutting but no drinking and no cutting. Life is just feeling like bullshit. Might try and catch my friend after I get back for a pop. Definitely not ready to return to work tomorrow.
Wake up from crying myself to sleep. Head pounding feeling like crap. Body hurting blessed I had a pretty good weekend. It was fun hanging out with my friend and her daughter. It just hit some triggers like missing my kids and being alone. Yesterday went to lunch with a old friends basically like a sister that was awesome and she listened and her boys are going through it to so she...
Just really really having the hardest time. Such a bed ridden, feeling trapped, feeling hopeless & feeling scared week. I don’t even know what to say