About 5 years ago I was at work and realized suddenly that I had no feelings. I was completely numb to any and all emotions. I was smiling and laughing with my customers, taking orders, talking to people and running the cash register and I had zero internal dialogue or emotional response to anything that was going on. Since then I've realized that at odd times I'll simply check out - I'll be involved cognitively but not emotionally. Sometimes it happens when I'm overstimulated or anxious, but sometimes its for no reason at all. Is this dissociation? I always remember it and I've never hurt myself during these times, but it's very obvious to my husband when things shift for me and it really disturbs him. I understand that this is a coping mechanism for me and I'm not ready to give it up, I just want more information. Can anyone help me?
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