I listed this posting mainly because I think feeling other people's pain has gotten me feeling really down. Crazy thoughts of self-harm going through my head when I thought all those feelings were gone. I am feeling triggered by people. Also hurt by some. I had a guy call me "gross looking" yesterday and my community support worker makes comments about how many groceries I buy. "She's like, well I could buy half of what you buy and be fine for the month". So that just all makes me feel down on myself. And I'm dealing with this chronic pain after surgery. I just am feeling a bit on the down side tonight. needing some love tonight. Needing my God's love tonight.
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