I left the relationship over six months ago. I have had no contact with him except through attorneys. It's true we were together for 15 years, but six months. I thought I would be further along. I just woke up all sweaty and breathless. My chest felt like it was going to cave in. I was scared. I dreamed about the last time he assaulted me sexually, and I was right bac there. It is always so vivid. I tried to force myself to change the dream while I was still asleep, but I couldn't. no matter what I tried, he was still on me and I couldn't get away. I was always too afraid to scream (wanting the kids not to wake up or hear) and that is the way I wake up - repressing a scream. Any advice on how not to let him into my head or how I can control it when he's in there? has anyone else experienced this? What have you tried? Does it work?
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