I am a 47 year old woman. I have been defenseless all of my life. I can defend others but when it comes to defending myself, I just can't - or won't - or don't know how. My immediate reaction is that it will do no good. Does anyone else struggle with not being able to defend themselves? As a quick history, I was taken when I was 2.5 from my birth parents with extreme failure to thrive. I am wondering if that coping mechanism got stuck in my brain as the way to cope with trauma that occurs in my life. I have had three or four spells of this 'failure to thrive' in my adult life (although I didn't know what it was until just recently) and am normally very high functioning. I can't seem to get out of this one. Can anyone relate to this?
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