I AM VERY GLAD TO HAVE DS TO LISTEN AND EMOTE TO. COMMENTS MADE AND ANSWERED ARE HELPFUL WHEN SOMEONE UNDERSTANDS. I AM SURE THAT THE PERSON I WAS WITH DOES DO DRUGS, HE WASN'T PRETENDING. I DID SMELL SOMETHING IN MY BATHROOM AFTER HE WENT IN. THAT TIME I HAD CLOSED MY WINDOWS. I GOT HIGH AS A KITE. I REMEMBER BEING IN PEOPLES HOUSES OVER THE YEARS. IT WAS CRACK. SO I HAD A LIER, THIEF, BRILLIANT AND GOODLOOKING WHO WALKED ALL OVER ME. THEN HE TOOK PEOPLE I KNEW AND PUT A WEDGE BETWEEN THEM. I GET SCARED TO SIT ON MY PORCH BECAUSE THIS "LETS SEE WHAT SHE'S DOING SO WE CAN REPORT IT TO THE CULT MASTERS. THE ONE WITH THE CHARISMATC PERSONALITY., AND HIS PART TIME GIRLFRIEND'S HOUSE. YES THERE IS INDEED APERSON I KNOW WHO GETS PLEASURE, OUT OF MY PAIN. BUT HE SAID HE'S DOING ME A FAVOR BECAUSE I LIKE IT. SO IS THE GUY I LIKED . THE FRIENDLY LIER. ANYWAY, GETTING TO THE INCIDENT TWO DAYS AGO. I FINALLY WENT OUT AFTER FEELING SICK AND STAYING IN BED FOR SEVERAL DAYS. I GOT UP AND DIDN'T HAVE A BAD DAY, EXCEPT FOR THE END OF IT. OF COURSE I AM NO ANGEL LIKE ANYONE ELSE, I GUESS. MAYBE I'M WORSE. I WAS INVITED TO THE "CHURCH DINNER" WHERE I USED TO MEET MR. C. (CHARISTMATIC) . WHO I HAVE NOT SEEN SINCE I THREW HIM OUT 6 WEEKS AGO. WHEN I GOT TO THE CHURCH MS. C(PART TIME GIRLFRIEND OF HIS) WAS GOING IN. I SAID A RESOUNDING "OH NO!" AS I SAW HER WALK IN ANYWAY. I SAID NOTHING TO HER BECAUSE SHE USED TO HARASS ME WHEN MR C. WAS AT MY HOUSE. COME OVER, CALL, YELL, CURSE, ETC. WOULDN'T LEAVE ME ALONE. VERY JEALOUS OF MR C. BEING HERE. USING ME AGAIN. ANYWAY WHILE IN THE CHURCH, THINKING I'D BE BRAVE WHEN I'M REALLY SCARED OF HER, WENT IN CHURCH TO FIND A CHAIR TO SIT DOWN TO EAT. THE PLACE WAS PACKED, AND THE ONLY CHAIR LEFT WAS ONE RIGHT NEXT TO MS. C.. OH NO. I ASKED IF THERE WAS ANY OTHER CHAIR TO THE PEOPLE WORKING THERE.I WENT TO MS. C'S TABLE AND TOOK THE REMAINING CHAIR NEXT TO HER AND BROUGHT IT OVER TO THE OTHER SIDE OF THE ROOM AND SAT AT THE END OF THE TABLE. THE GUY WHOSHE BEFRIENDED WHO USED TO BE MY FRIEND LEFT HER. PRETTY SOON MS.C WAS SITTING AT THE TABLE HERSELF LOOKING ANGRY. SOMEONE AT MY TABLE STARTED TO CALL HER OVER. I ASKED THE PERSON TO PLEASE WE DON'T GET ALONG THING. OKAY. MS C. WALKED PASSED ME AND WALKED PASSED ME AGAIN. I LOOKED UP AT HER AND SHE LOUDLY SAID, "I DON'T EVEN WANT TO SEE YOUR FACE!" i THINK I SAID SOMETHING BACK TO HER. BUT I WANTED HELP. I ASKED PEOPLE RUNNING THE DINNER TO ASK HER TO LEAVE ME ALONE. THEY ALL SAID TO IGNORE HER. BUT I INSISTED ON TALKING TO THE PASTOR'S WIFE AND THEY ALL SAID IGNORE HER. BY THEN MS C. WAS ACTING LIKE MS INNOCENT. MY ANGER ALL THIS , I SAID 'IF YOU DON'T TELL HER TO LEAVE ME ALONE I'LL DO IT MYSELF!" I MOVED TOWARDS HER. SOMEONE GOT IN FRONT OF ME AND SAID THEY WOULD CALL THE POLICE ON ME IF I DIDN'T STOP. AS I WAS WALKING OUT MS C. WAS SITTING CONTENTEDLY AT MY TABLE WITH THE OTHERS. I KNOW SHE WAS HAPPY I ACTED OUT AND I FELT LIKE A NUT. I WENT TO THE POLICE STATION AND DECIDED TO TELL THEM ABOUT IT. I AM GETTING SO ANGRY AT TIMES AT THESE PEOPLE AND HOW THEY ACT , I JUST DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO. I WORE MYSELF OUT AND HAVE BEEN IN THE HOUSE. WHAT'S THE SENSE OF GOING OUT? I DON'T FEEL GOOD. THE GUY THAT SAID MR C. WANTED TO SEE ME DEAD WASN'T LYING. I HAVE A HEART CONDITION AND I'M IN PAIN ALL THE TIME BUT I CAN'T BEAT ALL THESE PEOPLE AND I CAN'T GET ALONG WITH THEM. MOST ARE LIERS, ONE'S INTO WITCHCRAFT AND THEY CALL ME, HANG UP., I GET THIS FROM ONE OF THEM WHO DOSEN'T LIE TOO MUCH BUT IS FORBIDDEN FROM SEEING ME ALSO, I HAVE LOST EVERYONE, THEY ALL ARE OR HAVE BEEN MR C., LOVERS, ADMIRERS. I CAN'T GO TO MY CHURCH IN TOWN, AND I LIKE THE CHURCH, BECAUSE ONE OF THE SPIES IS THERE. I FEEL SO DEPRESSED I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO. THIS MS.C. COMES OVER TO A TABLE I WAS SITTING AND STARTS TALKING TO MY FRIEND. WELL MR C HAS ALL OF THEM NOW! I JUST CAN'T HAVE ANY FRIENDS. HE WILL FIND SOME WAY, SOMEONE TO WORK ON SOMEBODY ELSE TO BUT A PERMANENT WEDGE BETWEEN US. I FEEL LIKE I HAVE TO HIDE. WHAT HAS HE SAID ABOUT ME TO ALL OF THEM? I KNOW SOME THINGS. WHAT CAN I DO? YOU WOULD NOT BELIEVE THIS GUY.
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