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Hello!
Tomorrow is Thanksgiving and I am celebrating alone. In a lot of ways, I am certain I will enjoy it. In others... this is a very important holiday in my life - it's tide to family bonds.
I drank tonight...
I could really use a flood of hugs. I have a lot to overcome in the next months and, before I am left to my own devices and separated from you for awhile, I could use a flood of hugs. I really need some outside reassurance. Things are getting scary.
To be frank, homelessness - losing everything I have ever built and everything I have ever owned and seeing effort towards creating a home being a complete waste... Well, it's a big lost.
The retirement is all gone. The savings is all gone. Just enough income to keep a cell phone, the car insurance, a tank of gas (at least at Arizona prices) and a bag of dog food.
I do have "just enough" that showed up to fix the car (got to pass emissions), go to the vet (worries about heartworm, other worms, skin growths (CANCER???!!!!!), mites and other shots) and maybe just enough to buy a tent for us to live in. I am SO grateful for these things. When I think of these, I feel SO blessed.
Still, is a long road, and it's dark, and it's lonely, and it's pretty overgrown... that could lead to something beautiful. Still, it is scary and overwhelming and I'll be alone with how little access to you all... in a month... less?
So, I really need some love. All over the place non-stop love that just keeps coming even when it's not asked for... I have big goals. I have the start of the website and I am DETERMINED to get those nonprofit papers signed and filed NOW. We deserve this and I can make it happen for us... Carrot of Hope. I wish I knew how to file business papers. I wish I knew more about grants. I will take any help you want to offer. The bottom line? I'm not going down without ONE HELL OF A FIGHT! AND!!!! I AM KEEPING ALL YOU SAFE BEHIND ME!!!
This illness is stupid and it sucks and it's annoying, even when it's understood, it's still illogical to us because we're the one's who ALWAYS GET THROUGH EVERYTHING!!! :) I will get us through this. WE will get through this AND - WE'RE BRINGING EVERYONE WITH US!!!
If nothing else, I wanna hear a BATTLE CRY!!!!
Tomorrow is Thanksgiving and I am celebrating alone. In a lot of ways, I am certain I will enjoy it. In others... this is a very important holiday in my life - it's tide to family bonds.
I drank tonight...
I could really use a flood of hugs. I have a lot to overcome in the next months and, before I am left to my own devices and separated from you for awhile, I could use a flood of hugs. I really need some outside reassurance. Things are getting scary.
To be frank, homelessness - losing everything I have ever built and everything I have ever owned and seeing effort towards creating a home being a complete waste... Well, it's a big lost.
The retirement is all gone. The savings is all gone. Just enough income to keep a cell phone, the car insurance, a tank of gas (at least at Arizona prices) and a bag of dog food.
I do have "just enough" that showed up to fix the car (got to pass emissions), go to the vet (worries about heartworm, other worms, skin growths (CANCER???!!!!!), mites and other shots) and maybe just enough to buy a tent for us to live in. I am SO grateful for these things. When I think of these, I feel SO blessed.
Still, is a long road, and it's dark, and it's lonely, and it's pretty overgrown... that could lead to something beautiful. Still, it is scary and overwhelming and I'll be alone with how little access to you all... in a month... less?
So, I really need some love. All over the place non-stop love that just keeps coming even when it's not asked for... I have big goals. I have the start of the website and I am DETERMINED to get those nonprofit papers signed and filed NOW. We deserve this and I can make it happen for us... Carrot of Hope. I wish I knew how to file business papers. I wish I knew more about grants. I will take any help you want to offer. The bottom line? I'm not going down without ONE HELL OF A FIGHT! AND!!!! I AM KEEPING ALL YOU SAFE BEHIND ME!!!
This illness is stupid and it sucks and it's annoying, even when it's understood, it's still illogical to us because we're the one's who ALWAYS GET THROUGH EVERYTHING!!! :) I will get us through this. WE will get through this AND - WE'RE BRINGING EVERYONE WITH US!!!
If nothing else, I wanna hear a BATTLE CRY!!!!
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theatre and I are there already. I'm having a very berry tea with crackers, cheese and cherry tomatoes and she's having a joint with some beer and we're both on really comfy recliners on thick pile carpet. we need some help with the decor if anyone is around??
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I'm trying to exercise daily. I was doing fairly well until I sprained my ankle 2 weeks ago but now I'm getting back on the horse. Today I walked over a mile with my arm weights that are about 22lbs total. I was out of shape and it was hard on my arms. I also did my 30 situps. I'm also going to drink a lot of water and try to eat healthy. I do tend to have a sweet tooth but I'm cutting...
Even when you don't have access to us here in the next couple of months, remember that we are on your side and you are in our thoughts.
About your fear of homelessness, just try and stay in the present, sweetie. It serves no purpose to worry over things that might never happen. You have a roof over your head and food in the fridge. Right now, your dogs are OK.
I know you have suffered so much, brilliante, and lost what you thought your future was going to be. You may not be able to control all the factors going on in your life right now, but you can control your response to them. You can approach your future with dignity and hope for a better life. I have absolute faith in you, that you will find your groove again. Your projects sounds so promising. I believe in you.
Happy Thanksgiving. This year, circumstance means that it will just be you and your dogs...and that's OK. Next year, you could have many guests sitting around your table with you. Life is never static. :-)
Peace and love to you and your puppies. *hugs*
Sending kind and caring thoughts your way...
And lots of hugs
We need to remember that tomorrow is always full of promise. As long as we keep some flicker of hope in our hearts, then we keep alive the will to be the architects of our own lives.
You know, being sick with PTSD isn't a death sentence. We might have some limitations that we have to deal with, but we also have the ability to adapt. I'm going to make my world one that is full of hope and promise. My wish is that you do, too, that we all do.
Anyway, it was nice to log on and be flooded with them. It made the holiday nice. I even cooked a nice Thanksgiving meal just for me and my two service dogs.
THANKS EVERYONE!
(I *love* DS!)
This Thanksgiving (and every morning since then) I woke up and thanked God for DS, my girls (dogs), that I have a roof now, that is it my home now and has been, I am glad I was able to have it in the first place, my DS friends (of course!), being able to stay home and be quiet and find peace and balance, Thanksgiving (the holiday) cuz it rocks! and so many other things. :)