I babysat the next door boy again this afternoon and evening. He had a bad attitude when he got off the bus. But I let him help me cook his dinner and he softened up.
IDK what's going on with me? I'm tired all the time. No matter how much sleep I get I'm exhausted. I'm more depressed and don't have much energy to do anything. My psychiatrist increased my anti depressant but I haven't noticed a change yet. It's been a week on the higher dose. I hope I even out soon. If not, I may have to go inpatient. My meds may need an overhaul. ?
Guess that's about it for now. Thx for listening to my complaining.
I am up shaking right now from bad nightmares of when i was raped. I am not normally getting them because of the prazosin but just shaking right now and all upset and scared and panicky. I texted a friend but i have a hard time calling people especially during the night. Just hitting 4am here she gets up by 5 everyday so just gotta make it till then if she doenst wake up before. I ihate this i...
I don’t feel real. Nothing feels real or alive. I just don’t even know what to do for myself anymore. I feel like I can’t survive this I feel like it won’t get better.