So I just got home from my therapy appointment today. I really had to make myself go because I’m having a high muscle tightness & high pain day physically. and emotionally & mentally I don’t know how to explain but hard time especially because what time of year it is. I really wanted to stay in bed but made myself go. When I got there, rite as I saw my therapist I froze up, then I started getting all these thoughts in my head about why this is an especially hard time of year & then flashbacks. I couldn’t talk, so I tried to breathe & tell her what was going on in my head & how it’s a hard time of year & then I started crying again. I told her I didn’t want to cry because my jaw issues & I didn’t want it to lock up or pop again ....... & then felt like I couldn’t breath again. I froze again more .... so she asked me what I was thinking & if I was afraid to tell her the flashbacks I was having & I can’t remember what I said after that. So she then started asking me about what’s my favorite kind of tree & started asking me about what I like about those kind of trees & she said it was okay if we didn’t talk about anything too deep or traumas today. So we kept it light & started talking about my cat & stuff like that & it was helping me stay in the present. Before I left she told me some things that I can do to help like grounding & things that can help me feel safe.
I’m glad I went today ... baby steps I guess
I’m grateful to my therapist for being kind to me today
Big hug to anyone that reads this <3
HiI jsut wanted to say HAPPY SUNDAY and I hope everyone is doing well. Thinking about you. Whatever is going on. Wherever you are.Happy or sad Please remember thatYou aren't aloneWe are here Fighting back!!!Living!!!Propeling onward with youYes, you!!!
So just because the day keeps getting worse, I just found a red nodule cyst like thing on my 4 year old dogs paw. My dogs are obviously my saving grace.So now I have to just not breathe until I can get him to the vet.Make it stop, what have I done, really. It is one thing after another