Today was my grandson's 2nd b/d party. Even though I had all intentions of going even though my daughter and I are partially estranged, I think she really wanted me to go. I've been making it lately on about 4 to 5 hours of sleep per night and that's not good for me as I need at least 7 solid hours. I was awakend AGAIN around 2:30am and coudn't go back t sleep for hours.
I knew my ex pedophile would be there. When I did get up, I had 2 blackouts. I know I haven't been eating healthy foods lately due to a project I'm working on b4 starting new job, and I have some severe ringing in my ears. I got SOOOO angry about it as I tried to get ready.
Do any of you feel that because I've finally realized the estrangement between my daughter and me (the mother of my grandchild) and the fact that it is my ex that has caused her post traumatic stress that today was a "trigger" for me. I usually just go and everything is just fine, but with this newfound info, I just wondered if it had anything to do with it. I haven't left my house in weeks now due to my car not being in working condition and without a job, so if I've needed a nap during day, that was fine,but just having to get ready and with no sleep, I was a basket case and took some meds for vertigo and went back to bed. Ugh. I don't like to waste time like this.
I have an interview tomorrow after church and hope I feel well enough to go. I've been in my comfort zone.