My abusive ex moved back on Friday. He lives about a mile away. Depression and anxiety are quite high. He has been criticizing my parenting in front of the girls daily for the last week. My therapist tells me not to respond because it only encourages him. At the same time, I flashback to the days when I was with him and feeling trapped. Got a wellness check from the local police Friday night. If he found out, he would try to take the girls from me. They wanted me to go to the hospital. I thanked them but said I was fine just stressed. Last night the dark thoughts returned. Did my best to stay calm. Fell asleep on the couch cuddling my dog and watching baseball. Today I am extremely anxious and near tears. Going to work on some projects around the house to distract me. Any other tips?
How do you feel like you got away from abuse when you still feel the physical, emotional & mental pain of it everyday - very much so the physical pain makes it feel like did I ever really get away, I mean he didn’t murder me like he wanted to because I finally escaped, but the physical pain makes me still feel like I’ll never get away from the abuse, like I’m still being beat & abused...