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Anger. We should have it, right?

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I am a granddaughter of Swedish missionaries. Anger didn't exist in my house growing up. My father was a very selfless person and gave to everyone. My grandmother checked herself into the nursing home in her 70s so she could, "take care of my friends before they die". Then she checked herself out for a while and when she went back several years later, she did it "so I can take care of my friends before they die". She was in her mid 80s at the time.
So, lately, I've been feeling a lot of anger. And as it was not an emotion that we delt with as children, I've never been good expressing it. My strong sense of justice has suddenly kicked into high gear. I am angry about things starting with my adoption moving through my father's suicide, and right up to how I've been treated at work by our Human Resources person. I'm not exactly sure how to constructively express this very unfamiliar emotion. Any suggestions?
So, lately, I've been feeling a lot of anger. And as it was not an emotion that we delt with as children, I've never been good expressing it. My strong sense of justice has suddenly kicked into high gear. I am angry about things starting with my adoption moving through my father's suicide, and right up to how I've been treated at work by our Human Resources person. I'm not exactly sure how to constructively express this very unfamiliar emotion. Any suggestions?
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"The facts expressed here belong to everyone, the opinions are mine. Feel free to decide which is which."
This has been a big struggle for me. I had to reclaim my anger to heal. But I've really been punished for it. Laura Davis says in "The Courage to Heal" that anger is the backbone of healing.
There's nothing noble, spiritual, or healthy about denying any of our emotions. The key is finding a healthy outlet for all these strong feelings.
I'm a big believer in justice as well. Working for causes I believe in and speaking out are what work for me.
After the accident I was in I had considerable anger inside and I didn't know how to get it out. At one time I turned to drugs and alcohol to help deal with my anger.
Six years later my councelor tells me getting rid of the anger is a healing process. Now I get rid of some of it by writing, I have screamed, I have cried and have done physical activities such as running to help. I still have problems getting angry face to face with people however.
I hope this helped.
My goal isn't to get rid of anger but to channel it in healthy directions. That's a tough one.
There is a lot of power in anger. Going back to something else I just posted, Josh Walsh turned his anger into a way to catch criminals and created a movement to reduce the kinds of tragedies that happened to his son Adam. Without his anger, he would never have created something good.
Even Ghandi was angry. He just found a healthy way to express it to create change.
Speaking of that, I suppose anger is often an expression of a desire to create change. When I think of creating change from this experience, of finding a way to create something beautiful, my soul lights up. Now I just need to resolve the fear and my paranoia of conflict so I can make those thoughts reality! ;)
I find Yoga really brings me into balance. I like the tape by Gary Bromley. When done, it feels like I've had a full body massage.
When I journal, I find it brings out my creative thoughts. I start process beyond my feelings to much greater understanding. The actual illness doesn't subside, but I find peace in understanding and being able to back an remind myself does rebalance me.
As far as expressing anger, release is SO important. Release into a project, something really physical: cleaning (scrubbing and scouring), exercise, remodeling (pulling up tile, replacing door jambs, tearing out cabinets), art that requires real physical aggression... And when I was well, I taught my emotionally disabled students that hitting pillows and all that is a fine idea, but sometimes you >really< need the satisfaction of destruction. So, the question becomes ?what? can I destroy "constructively"? I like a glass jar from the recycle bin. I smash it on the concrete rather satisfactorily and then I sweep it up. Hey, it got recycled for a GREAT use! ;-) With my students, we filled water balloons and smashed them on the buildings. Then we picked up the pieces. Ultimately it left to laughter and laughter is an EXCELLENT release of all that energy.
Ultimately, anger is energy - strong, powerful energy - which needs a strong, powerful release. So, find a beautiful way to release and create something constructive OR constructively destructive. Hey, I've shredded journal pages by writing with the mechanical pencil and letting it catch and tear the page. I didn't really care about the writing, just the release. Today, I called my friend and said I need 5 minutes to "vent in a rant" and so we timed it and BOY did I release all over the place. It felt good to let it just spew all nasty and it felt better to know it was contained.
I think that's the thing. We're all sensitive and kind and thoughtful and generous and so far from selfish... So it becomes about letting the darkness we've been given by others out in a way that does >not< pass it on. But that's the thing, living with it inside us is killing us in the most painful and self aware way. So, darkness, anger... it does need to come out. Turn it into beautiful production or constructive release.
Suppressing it and keep it inside is NOT an option.