so after the crash that ended in the death of some one in my back seat i kinda pushed every thing asside and never delt. any ways now almost 4 yrs after im back in counseling and dealing but once or twice aweek when i cant deal with it i go and pop persciption pain killers. let me back it up i use to pop pills when i was like 15/16 but then relized i needed to stop before it lead to a problem so i flushed the vicodin down the toilet when i was like 17. back then to get high it take like 1 vicodin now im takeing 4 vicodin or now my favorit 2tramidol and 3 vicodin. any ways resently iv had like 3 or 4 people tell me im addicted/ an addict. iv been just brushing them off telling them no im not i can control it but i really dont know if i can i mean i know i cant do it befor i go to work but i have done it right when i get home. and i only get high when i cant deal with things and i need the edge taken off other wize i go psyco and hurt people phyicaly and emotionaly. so what do you guys think? is it not a problem/ can i stop or am i down i road once again that there is no turn around
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