so i thought the plan was for me and m to find a house to buy together and move in for september time. Not gunna happen. He just doesnt have time to look at anything he says. He is being so distant and seems hesitant for doing anything that means putting our money together. Its like he thinks/ knows we wont stay together for rest our lives. I made a sugguestion we open a joint bank account and both agree to put £100 each month to save up incase theres a leak in the roof that nerds mending, or wasing machine breaks and for the bills to come out of. Got alot of ummm maybe. I wish he would just say id rather not.
I saw a totally different side to him just 3 weeks ago at a friends of his wedding party. He seemed so happy, soppy and in love with me. Chatty and going into details of his life choices and plans. Info ive wanted to know a long time. Anyway, he even said after seeing his friends wedding he would like something like that. Of course me, who has been waiting years to marry got all my hopes up. Ive meanted it few times and it ferls he brushes it off like he has changed his mind bk to not wanting to get married.
He is under a hell lot of stress atm to get his qualification done in the next 5 months but im starting to feel at times just a friend he lives with. I mesn he is incrediably soppy and cuddly most days which i adore but in terms of big commitments there isnt anything from him.
We pay for everything seperatly. It has alot to do with how he was brought up with not alot of spare money at all.he is very gaurded and tight with his money. When we food shop he will buy his bare essentials and thats it. I look at his few things and think u cant just eat and drink that so i buy extra food and give it to him cos i know he likes it. I dont have to do this i know, but i love him. I want him to enjoy life and nice food and drink. I probably spend extra £8 a week on food just mostly for him. Yougurts, chocolate, fizzy drink, chicken, chips/ wedges, milk shake, cheese cake. Not all of them every week but it all adds up. He loves them things he just wont allow himself to grt them out his money cos they arnt esdtiantal to live.
Slowly he is loosening up at times i think then others i think not. I tend to spend my money alot to enjoy life treats. I buy him things as presents then end up taking them bk because well he doesnt want them, says he doesnt need them as hid jeans from 6 yrs ago still fit. And yes thats ok but its a treat and its nice to have something new now and then. I just find it so tough. I want him to let loose alittle and enjoy life while we have it.
ok now im crying. I feel ive been really mean about him here. He is soooo amazing to me he really is but he is sooo hesitant about the future it makes me scared and nervous.
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