I dont know if it is just a period in time I am going threw or what, But just recentlyI have deleted almost all my friends on my face book, In fact I dont know if I even want to keep my account, I dont have that many friends like alot of people do, I dont have that many and the friends I did have I know personaly and now I got this paranoid feeling that they are all two faced and lying to me and that they are really not my friends, I dont have alot of friends in the first place but a few and I just recently found out they had been lying to me and the friendship was more one sided, I think if you are truly friends with some one it should be equal, I guess to make along story short the point I am trying to make is I have been getting really paranoid lately, I have started isolating not wanting to really talk to any one because I dont trust them, I have also been having alot of flash backs recently from when I was a child and other times, It seems like the older I get the more the flash backs are coming back to me, Things I didnt remember are flooding in, I will remember some thing and then just start crying, I am just venting I guess tonight, I dont even know if I am making any sense to any one, If you want to respond you can if you dont you dont have to, I didnt even know what the subject matter should be
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