Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder (PTSD) Support Group
Find support with others who have gone through a traumatic experience. Whether you have chronic or acute PTSD, we are here for you.
I am 22 and I am a fire fighter, in 2004 we (the fire department) responded to a car accident and when we arrived 2 children one dead and one almost dead and a mother who was thank goodness had a head injury. It was a violent scene a Semi going about 65 miles and hour slammed into the back of one car which caused him to jump into on coming traffic and slam head on into the van holding the passenger described above. This is very hard to talk about and I can see it like I am there. Well that was in 2004 and in 2005 I started having backflashes and anxiety attacks and unexplained abdominal pain. I became suicidal and was committed for about a month. The symptons never went away and a few months later it came back. And again. Now about a week ago I started having bad nightmares and flashbacks and started thinking bad thoughts. I cant take this anymore the pain the suffering. I have been on more scenes with dead people and it is just racking up. I cant do it anymore. I was committed again for suicide attempts. Im ready to be out of pain. I even enlisted in the army and was discharged 6 months later because of the PTSD. Can this reoccur this far after the acidents. I am shaking right now just talking about it. I have been having really bad thoughts the last couple days. The meds they gave me dont seem to work. My life is done. I am afraid to go to my chief at the fire department because I dont want to be looked at differently. But...and my chief is giving me a really hard time. I am angry all the time, I find myself crying alot. I have constant unexplained abdominal pain. What do I do? Im scared...for my life...its like I dont care anymore. I am not interested in any of the things I loved to do before. Everytime I see a little girl that looked like her I start crying. I get really bad chest pains like I am having a heart attack and my pulse is always high I cant eat. I still remember everything about this little girl from her to her feet. She was so innocent and that bastard had to drink and drive and on top of that he had been driving all day and night...I dont think I can make it...Please help..
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theatre and I are there already. I'm having a very berry tea with crackers, cheese and cherry tomatoes and she's having a joint with some beer and we're both on really comfy recliners on thick pile carpet. we need some help with the decor if anyone is around??
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I'm trying to exercise daily. I was doing fairly well until I sprained my ankle 2 weeks ago but now I'm getting back on the horse. Today I walked over a mile with my arm weights that are about 22lbs total. I was out of shape and it was hard on my arms. I also did my 30 situps. I'm also going to drink a lot of water and try to eat healthy. I do tend to have a sweet tooth but I'm cutting...
Is there anyone you can talk to? friend? doctor? therapist?
It may be that you need to find a different job. As scary as that may sound, if your life depends on it, it's the thing to do. My inbox is open if you ever need to talk.
You witnessed a horrible and sensless crime. The man who chose to drink and drive killed innocient people ... he killed children. Do NOT become another one of his victims. If you take your life that's what you'll be. Another of his victims. Pleaes don't give him that power. He doesn't deserve it.
Please seek help right now. Who cares what your captain thinks? What will he think of you if you kill yourself.
I say with all honesty, I understand your pain. I understand the desire to end that pain.
But ... think about it ... if you kill yourself, who might you NOT save? If you're not here to do the work that you do ... who might die because of that? The world needs you. You just need some help from the world. It's a two way street. There's nothing weak about asking for help. In fact, the strong are the ones who chose to take action to better their lives.
YOU CAN GET THROUGH THIS. Please reach out for help. Please find a psychologist that specializes in the treatment of PTSD. If you can't wait that long, then please go to an E.D. and ask for help.
If you need to talk, send me a message. I'm here for you.
Wishing you peace and healing.
You are not alone. There are other firefighters on here. And, there is a trauma nurse on here that has PTSD from her career. And of course, the soldiers.
You need to get in with a good Psychiatrist and therapist SOON.
Check out www.sidran.org
And check my 11/3 journal for PTSD weblinks.
There is Hope in Healing!