I went to get more trigger point injections in my neck and shoulders. The doctor did more this time than he did last time. After the injections, My arms shoulders and neck have been sore for days, which is normal.
But the problem is that I think the shots aggravated the peripheral neuropathy that I have in my arms and hands. Iimmediately after the shots the neuropathy, the pain, the numbness, tingling, kicked in really bad and it’s been really hard to do simple things like write, brush my teeth, take pictures, cook, and today it was really difficult to hold the leash to walk my dog. I am hoping that it’ll wear off as the soreness does in a few days. If it doesn’t get better by Monday, I’m going to call the doctor that did the shots and see what they say.
I’ve been using ice and heat on and off. I’ll continue to do that only do it more.
This morning, I took my dog out for a walk. Because she is such a good dog I can drop the leash and she follows me and listens to me. But I had such a hard time just holding onto the leash to walk her out the front door.
I dropped the lease shortly after that and we walked up to the garden area. I sat down at the bench there and just felt so defeated and aggravated. My arms and hands hurt so damned much. I was feeling despondent about my ability to do photography. My arms and hands have been holding me back from doing it as much as I want already but this just feels worse now. This is probably the worst it’s been in the year maybe more.
I told my doctor about it, my PCP, and he referred me to a neurologist to see next week. The problem is that when I was in Pennsylvania, they did a nerve conduction test and said there was no evidence of carpal tunnel syndrome. They did x-rays and MRI‘s and everything on my neck and there is nothing in my neck to indicate that it should cause This. And that’s the most likely place that a problem would appear that would affect my arms and hands. So they called it idiopathic peripheral neuropathy. Idiopathic as in of an unknown cause. The real definition is the doctor is too much of an idiot to figure it out.
The healthcare down here in Austin Texas is so much better. I feel like I never got the care I needed in Pennsylvania for anything. They didn’t properly treat me for depression, anxiety, or complex PTSD. I fought for years to try and find a doctor to fix the issue with my back. Suffered for 2 and a half years before I finally found a Doctor who could figure it out.
Sorry for the long winded post. Just need to get it out because I’m just so Damn frustrated. I want so badly to do photography but my hands hurt so bad. They hurt before they flared up this week. I’ve been looking into adaptive devices for my computer and started to look into them specifically for photographers and iphone users. I don’t know what else I can do, other than lay down and die, which I’m definitely not going to do. I work too damn hard to get to this point. I know I will struggle with disability for the rest of my life but that doesn’t mean I shouldn’t be able to pursue any of the things that I really want to do.
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