Im a mother of three, oldest is now a pre-teen, son is 4 and baby is now 4 months. My four year old hasADHD and im having a really hard time trying to balance everything. My baby was 9 weeks early, so although she is 4 months old, she is still like a 6-8 week old. The first few weeks caring for a newborn are very tiring, but I feel like these first few weeks have been extented into months. Im not one of those mothers that looks at her newborn and instantly feels a connection. Bonding doesnt come easy. This time around its even harder since she spent the first month in the NICU. She has been home for almost 3 months, but still feels like a stranger to me. I want to be able to spend time just cuddling with her and getting to know her, but there is always something else that I need to be doing. My 4 year old is constantly getting into something. I feel that I need to put my newborn to the side so that I can keep my 4 year old out of trouble. My therapist has told me to get some time to myself, but when would I do that?When Im not busy with the kids, there is always something around that house that needs to be done. I feel like since I do stay home with the kids I should be able to do it all and feel like I am failing since I cant seem to do it. I dont feel like im doing a good job at any of it. When my husband gets home from work, I want him to acknowledge what Ive done during the day, but then looking around the house, it doesnt seem like ive done much at all. All l want to do is lay in bed all day, but I dont. I force myself to get up but I dont see the point in trying anymore.
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