I am a military wife who is from colorado and moved from NC to VA where we are stationed. My husband has been deployed 3 times so far and its been rough. When we moved to VA i found out i was expecting... and i was soo scared but knew i was blessed. BUt the pregnancy was rough. i ended up getting preeclampisa and my daughter was born 2 months premature. i was in the hospital for 9 days after the birth suffering with high BP and PTSD. My daughther was in the NICU for 1 month and then we got to bring her home. I dont have any family here so it was soo hard to deal with... i have made some friends here but i cant seem to connect with them as much as i want to. they all work during the day and i stay home wiht my daughter who is doing better everyday. i just feel soo depressed. and isolated from the world,. I want to feel happy because im so blessed. but i feel like i want to just die sometimes.. im not sucidal but im just so sad. i had to make alot of life changes before she was born i used to go out alot and things but now i just stay home and i feel like life has just changed to dramatically to deal with .. i know i needed to change but the saddess of what i went through and the experience and not having anyone here to talk to besides my husband and a councler or friends here who dont really understand is soo hard. when i found this site i felt so excited i might find someone who i can talk to who might feel the same. i hope.. thank you all for reading i know this is long but ijust kinda let it out there... i have more but if you want please write me! i would love to hear from anyone...
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