It is good to take responsibility for the things in life that we can control or create. We want to believe that we can always manifest our dreams and visions in physical form through hard work, diligence, and forethought. For those of us whom MS has unexpectedly entered our lives, altering what we have created, it becomes clear that there are plenty of things that we cannot control, no matter how hard we try.
One of my personal greatest challenges when I am faced with a difficult problem, is to believe I have done all I can to exert control over my environment, and to learn that at a certain point, I need to let go of a problem, and turn it over to a higher power. I want to believe that my world is one that what I have worked for is the same world I see each morning that I awake. I have dreamed and worked, and expected it to be so.
It is difficult for me to learn that at a certain point that I have done all I can to exert control, and that I must let go and allow the universe to take over. This requires trust, which is not easy to come by, or to believe in these days, especially when that delicate trust has been betrayed. This trust runs deeper than just expecting things to turn out the way I want them to. Sometimes situations do turn out the way I want them to, but quite frequently for me, they do not. I have to continuously remind myself that we can only develop equanimity and grace as we learn to trust that, with the guiding hand of a higher power, life will unfold exactly the way it should. If it is true that we are engaged in an ongoing relationship with a universe that responds to our thoughts and actions, then if I learn to better extend trust to that universe, wonâ??t I be better prepared to grow with grace as my handmaiden, rather than growing with frustration and disappointment?
What is your most difficult personal challenge to overcome â?? something you want to change about yourself that will allow you to better become the person you will more deeply admire?