I'm just upset because I've been told everything from I have PCOS to I'm sorry but I don't think you ovulate. I just wish someone could tell me whats REALLY wrong with me. My cycle is so abnormal it makes Picaso's work look straight. Then to top it off there's the bleeding after intercourse not to mention it's become so painful it's not even worth it even more. Then to top it off I have to wonder will I ever be able to have children? Or will I have to have a hysterectomy? Then to make it worse... every women in my family is fertile mertel except me. I was with my partner for four years and tried for two and never once was able to get pregnant. So, here I sit in my room depressed and blogging online because I just found out I am going to be an aunt for the fifth time :( I'm just tired of being tired. I'm tired of the pain and I'm tired of telling myself that it's no big deal. It's not like I'm dying of cancer right? There are people out there with far worse problems than my own. But there is my problem, I'm in denial. I keep telling myself not to think about it. Not to deal with it or cope. Just shove it down a little further and smile because people like happy people. Well I'm tired of lying to myself. I'm sick and I have a crappy uterus ... There I said it.
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