Even though i have moved away now over a month i still share a cell phone bill in my name with my ex. Well i have been checking his recent calls, first mistake. And have noticed he is talking to his ex who was before me all the time! He has yelled to me on numerous occasions that he gave up a lot for me. i know she is in a semirelationship but i am really wondering if he is trying to get things back up with her. But most of all why does this bother me sooooooo much? Why am i not saying good that will get him off my hands now? Why does it hurt and why do i feel betrayed? That's the sickness of all this after all i have been thru i could feel jelousy of another woman. I did see a new psychiatrist last night and i really liked him. I think he will be able to help me get my head back together more. But back to my topic my ex and i have this new agreement where we are not supposed to talk for 4 weeks unless it is an emergency and he is also supposed to be taking over his phone. Now i know the no contact will do me good but now that i know he is reestablished this relatioship(calls) with his ex how do i not drive myself batty over it. I feel so stupid for even caring. I don't understand why i still make myself feel like i lost something good? I just want the day when i really FEEL in my heart that i am over him. Nobody understands in my family they think i should be feeling so much hate and dislike for him. And saying good ridance. Anyone go thru this and can share some words of wisdom?
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