I just don't understand anymore. I'm not an idiot by any means, but I can not, for the life of me, figure out why I'm treated so horribly by someone who tells me they truly love me one minute, and in the next minute, I'm being told that I'm a bitch and that they want nothing to do with me. I just don't get it.....Is it really me? i try to tell myself it's not me, its not my fault, but after having it happen again and again and again, I have to really look at myself and say, Maybe it is me, Maybe I really am just that horrible of a person and difficult to get along with..... I just can't think of any other reason why that I'm treated like this. HOW CAN YOU TELL SOMEONE YOU LOVE THEM AND THERE'S NO ONE IN THE WORLD YOU'D RATHER HAVE, THEN DEGRADE AND DISREGARD THEM?? CAN SOMEONE EXPLAIN IT? My mind and heart can't take it anymore, but yet I don't have the guts to leave.... and I don't understand why I can't let go. This has been going on for 2, almost 3, years. Recently, it has gotten worse, then better, and now it's going downhill again. I just don't understand why I stick around and expect a huge change, it's never going to happen at this point. It is what it is, so why can't I let go and move on? I need help :(
Posts You May Be Interested In
A friend sent this to me..As far as I can see, grief will never truly end.It may become softer overtime, more gentleand some days will feel sharp.But grief will last as long as Love does - ForeverIt's simply the way the absence of your loved onemanifests in your heart. A deep longing accompaniedby the deepest Love some days. The heavy fog mayreturn and the next day, it may recede.Once again, it's...
Today is my 25th birthday, to my somewhat lack of surprise I can see already no one really seems to care. I've always been the kinda person to make sure that everyone I Care about feels appreciated and knew somebody had their back. I can count 4 times this year when I Went out of my way to make sure a "friend" felt good on their birthday, especially if they got left hanging. Its early in the...