years of being beaten and abused, being turned into a slave with horrible consequences for being bad trained me to be what he wanted me to be. Now I am with a wonderful man, but I still treat him as I would Nathan. I do all the house work, even shine his boots for work. I do all the cooking and errands. I please his in the ways I was taught to , but I feel like I do it out of fear. Tried to just be me once, but felt so scared, like I was going to get beaten any moment, and the weird part was, I felt like I deserved it. I just don't know who I am anymore.
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