I'm really greatful that I found this site. I've only been in this "relationship" for 3 years now but it seems like I'm a completely different person that the one that I was before all of this. I am willing to try just about anything to stay far, far away from this man other than moving. It's just not an option. I couldn't possibly write all of the horrible things that have happened in the past 3 years but I guess a breif synopsis would work. We met and he was wonderful, charming, fun, loving, etc. As time went on I realized that he was a drug and alcohol addict, abusive both mentally and physically, manipulative, a cheater, a habitual lyer and a narcacist. Well then I thought I could change him or maybe if I loved him with everything that I had then he could find the courage to change. Well that wasn't the case. I eventually got pregnant with my 9 month old daughter. Then she gave me a reason to stay which is funny since I wouldn't let my 7 year old son be around him because he was so toxic but I thought that he would be better to my daughter since she was his. Near the middle of my pregnancy things got pretty bad so I saved up and planned, when he wouldn't come home at night, my plan to leave and eventually left. He then went to jail for a drug violation and for beating up the women that he was seeing while he was with me. While he was in jail I continued to support him thinking that all he needed was someone to be there for him and he promised me everything that I wanted... a family, stability, love, support but those were all just empty lies. He got out and went right back to his old ways. Now he is in domestic violence counciling(due to a charge I brought against him), going to church once a week and claims that he's changed but he hasn't and can only stay straight for a couple of weeks although his behavior toward me is always horrendous. So I want this to be the last time that I yoyo. I'm drained and I have no more energy for any of this can't do it not even one more time but even as I write this I think about what he's doing or how I could call him. So my question to all of you is how do you stay gone? Any little suggestion I will try because I am that desperate to stay away.
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