I have been with my husband for 10 years, they have been extremely rocky. i knew from the beginning that i had jumped out of the fire into the frying pan but i had gotten pregnant, i wanted to do the best thing for our child and I thought if I loved him enough, he would change. Here it is 10 years later and after many many heartaches,I went for help at DVIS, got family and friends support, and i asked him repeatedly to leave and he finally did. So now why do i spend each day in tears? why does my little girl have to see all this hurt? I've known for a long time that he didn't love me, he said the words, along with other very damaging/hurtful words but his actions never matched the love that he spoke of. he degraded me, insulted me, controled me, accused me, told friends and family what a horrible person I was and how i was mean to him and I could go on...so somebody tell me what it is I am so upset about?? He is so happy and content being away from me, has no interest in talking to me or seeing me...THIS IS What i wanted...*sobbing i got some books at the library which i hope helps. i needed to find one on why i love the one that hurts me so...I just don't understand, i thought the hurt would be over.
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