I just get so confused sometimes when he starts on me.Yesterday we were just laying on the couch together all cuddled up watching a movie and he got up to look for some paper and he couldnt find it. He went into a rage, throwing things, yelling and it soon became all my fault. That was it, then it went on all day. All over a paper that he couldnt find that had nothing to do with me at all? I tried to ignore him but he would just start yelling at me out of the blue. He started blaming me because we were broke because one of my cousins borrowed thirty dollars and didnt pay him back. Thirty dollars??? When he just got 400 out of me 2 days earlier for drugs. But we were broke because my cousing borrowed thirty dollars. I just dont understand how he can acually rationalize this in his head. I was just laying on the couch because i've been sick and this was like 5 hours later than when it first began and he just started calling me lazy and disgusting and on and on. I just dont get it. Everything was just fine and then bam! The insults went on all day and night and even after I went to bed and he came up and woke me up still going on. Then he wakes up the next day gives me a hug and kiss and everything is fine again. It was just a little reminder I guess that even though things have been good lately that dosnt mean there gonna stay that way. I just dont understand how someone can get so angry over something so stupid and it turns into a day of verbal abuse.
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