I am 21 and male. This is my first time in my life I've come forward with my problem. I've suffered physical and emotional abuse growing up. The physical has stopped but the emotional continues on a daily basis. I feel worthless, ashamed, I feel I don't deserve to be loved and I don't know why. I know I'm a great person and someone like me deserves these things but for some reason I push everyone away. I met a girl which I'm in love with and she's in love with me yet I feel like I don't deserve her. When someone compliments me, notices my acheivements, or I become the centre of attention it makes me uncomfortable. I suffer from chronic pain everyday. Sometimes I think my heart will be broken forever, but broken hearts can be repaired. Mine is burning down. There is much more to my story but I'll end it here. Where do I start getting my life on track? I browsed the site and have no idea. I would really just like to talk to someone anonymous in a chat or something, I'm not ready to get help in person such as counselling. I'm still trapped in my abusive home so if they found out I'm too scared to know what will happen, I have no choice to live here until I finish school.
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